Recently I have been trying to write my own life story - mostly for therapy. And it has been raising some painful issues. I was adopted at the age of about six months; I know nothing about my biological parents and don't want to know. My adoptive parents have been fantastic and I love them dearly. However I suspect that my adoption might be the cause of a sort of "abandonment issue" that I have now that I'm married. At the moment I am not working and my wife is; I get depressed even when she goes out to work! And the few times she has been away for longer periods (e.g. visiting her family overseas) I became very miserable and depressed. I tried to express this neediness in a short poem:
"Absence from you is a wound that does not heal
Until I see your dear little face again,
Until I feel your body warm against me."
My wife is the best thing in my life, God's greatest blessing to me. I just wish I wasn't quite so anxious and needy!
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